Monday, May 24, 2010

Time to Heal

It's not fair when your goals are suddenly scattered like spring time dandelion seeds in a gust of wind.

It's not fair when the road that was paved with promise suddenly turns into heart break.

It's not fair when your best friend for the last 8 years can no longer go with you to chase down a few miles on a sunny afternoon.

It's not fair when that friend who you have carefully raised and taken every precaution to keep safe and healthy suddenly becomes incapacitated.

It's just not fair...

and yet... Life carries on.

There are other horses , other work that must be done. You deal with the challenge and you get on with it. You change your course of direction, you adjust your focus, you do what must be done. You push through , you endure. And isn't that what Endurance is all about anyways? Endurance to keep going, regardless of the demons you face along the way. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and make the best decisions you possibly can. Sometimes, not because you want to , but because if you don't, you will crumble.

JB had surgery on Friday, May 21st. The surgery went well and he is now home recovering. He is on medication to remain as quiet as possible. He is going to be laid up for a long time, 2 months of stall rest , in addition to the 3 weeks he has already endured. It's alot to ask of from a horse like him and yet he has surprised me at how well he has adapted.

He requires much more of my time these days, but for different reasons. Our relationship has developed a new layer. These days, our time together is about healing, time to comfort and care for him , and time for patience, with each other. There will be time spent giving him long grooming sessions, massage and body work sessions and then just time to be quiet together. He's adjusting as well as can be expected. We have a long journey to endure together.

5 comments:

Tammy said...

You are right. It's not fair.

Hang in there. I can't imagine what you (and your horse) are going thru right now...

Cheyenne said...

Thinking of you, its never fair.

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you guys Jonna. The time will fly and JB will be out romping around the pasture in no time. Praying for a quiet and full recovery. ~ Amanda

Jonna of Acer Farm said...

@ Tammy- I am such a worry wort when it comes to my horses. I am my own worst enemy sometimes!

@Cheyenne- thanks...

@Amanda- Yes, I believe he will be. In the meantime, he already has me trained to collect buckets of hand picked grass for him. Think he's got me trained ???

Mel said...

Yep. I totally feel you. I did everything pERFECTLY with Farley and in a fluke that was neither of our faults, she bowed a tendon only 3 weeks after I bought her. My perfect endurance horse that I bought because my current horse was lamed was now also lame.

Anything I say is totally inadequate, but hopefully you are comforted by the fact that you have a horse that is available and loves the time you are spending with her!

Good luck and stay strong...